I have this horrible social tick. I don’t know how it originated, but I’ve noticed that it’s happened more often with every passing year. I laugh with an almost villainous glee whenever I see something happen to someone else that I wouldn’t normally want to happen to me. It always happens when I’m caught up in competition. For example, I’ll watch as the server on a opposing doubles tennis team accidentally serve the ball at the back of the head of his/her partner. I don’t know what it is but I cackled with such abandon that I found it alarming later on. What does that say about me subconsciously? I’ve thought about it. I’m still thinking about it and I’ve come to the conclusion that as much as I’d like to think the best of myself, I should also occasionally consider the worst.