If anyone has come to this website and has been reading my drivel, you’ll have noticed my entries have been sparse this past year. It entirely has everything to do with a child and all the upkeep said child requires. Maybe not entirely, but a very large portion of it.
Professionally speaking, it has been a good year. I’m not un-pleased with how things have turned out, though I think it could have been more technically challenging. The surprise to me was how all the chaos just suddenly snapped into order at the last moment. The lesson I’ve taken away from this is that for all that is under my purview, there are things are simply beyond my influence. Don’t allow them to upset my inner balance and continue as I am best able. This is a lesson that has been a longest to set in to my work life and the most difficult for me to comprehend. Probably because there’s nothing there to understand, so I’ll leave it at that.
In my personal life, I am content. This contentment, it spills over into ever aspect of my life. I can only say that this has been a good thing. No. A great thing. The vast majority of this credit goes to my wife and more recently my son. These two people, whom I could not have ever conjured out of my imagination prior to meeting them, have greatly expanded my life experience. Life with them has allowed me to be calmer and open to the possibilities of unplanned experiences. Before they entered my life, my whole body would clench up at the mere possibility of an alternate route or an unscheduled life events that might put me briefly off course. I’ve come to accept these moments as small inconveniences in life and a potentially wonderful stories that I can add to my trove. I won’t say that it’s all rainbows and sunshine. Like all marriages, ours require work to maintain. I hope I am up to the task.
I told someone once this year that I have been very lucky. It was only after I said it out loud that I realized the extent of my luck and to whom it is owed. The great bulk of it goes to family: the ones I chose and the ones who chose me. I thank you for what you have taught me. To all of you, I wish the best yet to come to you this new year.